Sometimes on my worst days, where pain grabs me by the throat, I forget how far I have come. Does it ever feel like you take a step forward, only to take two steps back? My pain seizes me in my darkest moments – it makes me forget who I am and all I have worked for. Despite this, I get to decide who I am. Trauma and pain may shape me in who I become, but it does not define me. I always forget this in my darkest moments. Ironic, isn’t it? That when we most need ourselves, we struggle to show up.
If you are also unsure of where your life is going or what to do next, know you’re not alone. I have to constantly remind myself that healing is not linear and that it is a process. You are human and you are allowed to have feelings.
No one deserves to go through trauma, but each person gets to decide how they let it affect them. In dark times, it is easy to forget that you hold all the power within you to determine your own outcome. It is exhausting, I know, but this is your reminder to save yourself. Save yourself over and over again because you’re worthy of saving.